Happy New Year

Happy new years everyone. Hope ya started the new year correct. Def chilled at the boy brandon crib n had a poppin time playing taboo n call of duty. Def finished a bottle of $5 wine by myself n was def feeling the effects at brandons crib. N I blazed before going so I reely had a good night. Out with the old, in with the new. We on to the next one n off that. 2009 def had its interesting moments. I wud prolly give it a 7.5/10 on how gud of a year it was. Highlights def hafta be past 2 days, n initiatin into phi psi den bein elected vp. Def many more, but those r the things most prevalent in my head right now. I’m packing my shit now cuz I’m def movin out my crib in da mornin. Didn’t even realize I was movin out till today smh. Its kool tho, might chill wit the bro n sis 2moro mayb? Who knos lol. Oh wells. Back 2 packin I guess. Lata ya’ll.

-Stephflow

A Night at the Apollo

So yesterday me n kyanna went to the apollo theater to see Ludacris perform n dat shit was bananas!! Lyk it was crazy. Luda got joints for days n he got club bangers so niggas was just vibin…den dis nigga brought out jada, ron browz n jim jones. Dat shit got super live. Lyk it was ridiculous. Def lost my voice for a minute wen jada came out. I was screamin his made you look verse. Shout out to joan who was dere wit us. Good night overall. Kyanna is def subliminally telling me she’s fkin otha guys at skool without actually tellin me. N it bothers me, but not as much as I thot it wud. It was wateva. She’s fkin otha guys, I’m fkin otha girls. Works out I guess. N she keeps sayin she sees herself marryin me. I feel lyk that’s an unconscious ploy by females to keep men around. Its a nice thought, but I aint fallin it. Ill believe it wen we go back out which prolly wnt happen. But wateva, I feel lyk I got damala as a back up if worst comes to worst. That sounds horrible. But she’s the only other girl I lyk enuff to date to counteract not bein wit kyanna while gettin her jealous. Oh well…this has nuthin 2 do wit the dopeness that went down at the apollo yesterday. A true NY n ATL affair. Aye!! Lmao

-Stephflow

Been A While

So it most def has been a while since I posted on this. Been on break for about 2 weeks now. Wats happened?? Umm the LO alumni fireside chat went well. Reconnected wit people I aint speak 2 in a while, saw frends I aint seen in a while. Good times. Seen kyanna once, it was kool. Drive 2 her house was a lil hectic but kool nonetheless. Had fun wit MPR at Brando’s crib, good broing out time. Bought my nephew a gangsta guess leather jacket for christmas. Not sure if he lyked it, but he will lol. My bro n sis got me a polo thermal, which will get me into buyin more thermals in the future lol. Should be seeing avatar in 3d n sherlock holmes 2dae. Lookin lyk its gonna be a hectic week, wit it bein my last one b4 goin 2 fl for a week. Damn. Been playin the darkness lately, pretty good game. Wen I’m dun I’m playin devil may cry 4 next. I wanted dj hero for christmas but my pops aint even get me a card. Damn. Iunno how kyanna does it, is all in love wit me in brooklyn, n forgets about me in lancaster. It annoys me, but wat about the past year n a half hasn’t annoyed me? Ill get over it, maybe. Prolly not. Fuck. Whatever, I haven’t stopped livin my life n in order to continue I can’t stop. On to other news, ill be leading hi hi’s for run out since jockers won’t be there. Kinda excited lol. Ahh the perks of being vp lol. Its fuckin 6:15 in da damn mornin…y am I awake?? Grr. Back to my quest for sleep. Lata ya’ll.

-Stephflow

Ex-Factor

Yes its been a while. Sup ya’ll, finals been kicking my ass. I been doin iight tho, did pretty well i think on my greek history final and pretty well on my chinese student protest paper. Got my psych final 2moro den im done 4 da semester which is cool. Iight so whats new in my life u ask?? Funny u shud cuz a lot has happened. Well for starters, damala potentially has chylamydia?? Prior to doing research, i thought i mighta caught that shit, but i really see that as unlikely now. But still…damn. She wanted me 2 go in raw too…good thing i sed no to dat shit. Now, this next thing, it really shouldnt be a big thing, but kyanna had her formal yesterday n while looking at one of her friends photo albums i saw her dancing with some guy i presume to be 25 yr old date. Now them dancing didnt bother me, it was the fact that they were holding hands while dancing. Such a small minor detail, but its urking me so much. Its like getting confirmation that shes been fucking that dude. Its one thing to know it n not really see it, but to kinda see it n get semi-confirmation about it is another. It hurts lyk a bitch. A serious one. Man i dont think this girl will ever realize how crazy I am for her…n it fuckin sucks cuz i really feel the need to try n move on but its easier said than done. But wat can i do, huh? Smoking my pains away is only temporary…watever. I’ll bounce back. Seriously thinking of staying 2 weeks in florida…i think i just need 2 get away from it all. On a lighter note, She Hate Me, in my opinion, is one of Spike Lee’s best work. A really interesting movie. Iight well, lata ya’ll. Song of the day: Lauryn Hill – Ex-Factor.

-Stephflow

Finals…

Are kicking my ass. Ill post something after its all said and done. Which will be Wednesday. Later ya’ll.

-Stephflow

Movie and McDonalds…

So i had quite a long text messaging convo with kyanna today. Apparently she likes some guy but doesnt want to date him because she still has feelings for me. So she came to me for advice?? Yea I was a bit baffled by that also lol. I feel kinda bad cuz she should be able to move on with her life and do what she wants. But then again, after dating josh she didnt think she would have dated anyone for a while and look how far that got her (with me lol). So they could just happen to end up together if he keeps trying hard enough. But i really dislike the fact that dude is 25 years old. That really just bothers me. 7 year difference, really?? I cant fuck with that…but its not my life, its hers. So i cant do shit about it but do what i do on the sidelines and be a good friend. We also happen to talk about her taking me to a movie and me treating her to mcdonalds afterward. I aint cheap, just dont got bread for a better restaurant right now. In due time though. On another note, as much as I love being vice pres, the job comes with baggage. Just dealing with peoples stupid decisions is annoying in itself. But i can appreciate the meetings the Top 4 have, does lead to some good bro’ing out. Still a bit pissed bout formal…cant front. That was just such a bitch thing to do…im supposed to have dinner with them tomorrow but im going to cancel eventually. Dont want to really see her and pay for her (and her friends) dinner at the campus center. I should be writing a 750 word essay due tomorrow right now, but im instead writing this. I cant lie, I like writing my blog, its like writing an open letter to myself, just to get shit off my chest. Its soothing. Like listening to Michael Jackson while being in love (his unreleased song called Buttercup with the Jackson 5 popped on and was a soothing voice lol). Iight well before i ssign off, I havent given ya a SOTD in a while.
SOTD-Unthinkable (Im Ready) by Alicia Keys.

-Stephflow

Stupid Allegheny Girls

I had my formal yesterday, it was cool, but tell me y my date kept saying she had to go help one of her frends who was crying n kept telling me she wud come back. Well the bitch never came n then i find out later she ditched me to go to another party. Like seriously? Did she not think i wud find out? Sigh..cant fuckin take girls at this skool…cant wait to go back to brooklyn fuck wit real chicks. Lata.

-Stephflow

12/3/09

I miss my ex girlfriend kyanna today. But ill end up talking to my exxx girlfriend damala today.

-Stephflow

*Update* Actually didnt talk to damala. Still kinda miss kyanna. I really feel like i need to move on. But for sum reason i cant.

Another day…

Ugh i feel lyk this thing with my exxx, named damala, isnt going to go away. I dont want to say shes annpyin me cuz she reely isnt, but just the whole situation in general is lyk maybe i shudnt have told her. Cuz right now were acting kinda like a couple in a long distance relationship. But when i go back home i dont want us to be like that. Like i want us to be close, but not to the point where its like its visible to everyone that sumthin is going on. Maybe zeeks was right…maybe i shudnt have told her. It aint doing nuthin now…fuck me n my stupid emotions. Shit makes no fkin sense. I blame kyanna. if she aint fuck up my shit first i wudnt be in this predicament that im in. Fack.

-Stephflow

On to the…old one??

Damn its been a minute. Well I came back from NYC yesterday (sunday lol) n my time there was as great as it was confusing. I saw all the people wanted to see which was good, ate all the food i wanted to eat. But what was weird was that I saw my ex ex ex lol three times this week and my ex once. And I think im starting to catch old feelings for the exxx lol. Like we’ve always clicked, and i dont know. What does this say about my feelings for my ex, which are def still there? Damn. I told my exxx and she just said she was surprised. Not sure what else I expected her to say…I have the general feeling she wants to go back out with me cuz she kept asking what i was going to do about the situation n i kept saying nuthin. Last time i tried long distance it ended pretty quickly, and i still do have feelings for my ex so it wudnt be fair to my exxx to go out with her with those feelings still there. Iunno, ill see how this plays out. Other than that, we had a good MLK meeting saturday, went to the ESPN Zone with the exxx and other LO heads, saw New Moon which i wont even divulge into because it 1) isnt worth my time, 2) would go on for lyk 5 pages. Just know that when ur 2 main characters r the worst parts of the movie, theres a problem. Anyways thats my update, umm being VP of Phi Psi is going well. I expect things to get progressively worse as time goes on haha. I feel lyk im up waiting on my exxx but im bout to sleep, fuck that shit lol. Lata

-Stephflow